Healer, take your own damn advice!

I am a witch, I was born one, as much as that may annoy some out there that disbelieve that can be true, or may suddenly ask me for some sort of verification on this subject, some degree or some other piece of paper that states what I am, truth is I have never needed anyone to believe, assert or reaffirm for me what I have always known.....I AM a witch and I was BORN a witch. I fought it for many years and I resisted the signs and signals from the other side, the dreams and visits from ancestors that I had never met in life, but that got me nowhere so about 26 years ago I jumped right out there and let the world know ~ well my family and those around me ~ that I needed to follow my path and I became a tarot card reader for a certain shop on the Lakeshore in Mississauga, Ontario, Canada. I loved it and never looked back after that. This path has been a long one, it has also been a painful and rewarding one all in the same breath.....I have lost many along the way, that either judged or were afraid of what this meant, I think of them at times, miss them even but when I think back to who I was with them and who I am now, I know I could never have gotten here if I had stayed there. So I keep walking forward, life has been hard at times, at others wonderful and really such is life, not to sound so cliche but it is the truth, it is all a cycle, what goes up must come down and so on and so forth, I am sure we all know that by now.......

It seems these days though that all I find when I log into my profile and check my wall is a constant complaint about how this witch is doing this, or that one is doing that, and how dare they think they know what they are doing and I shake my head.....what has happened to these people that they always feel the need to judge, comment and spread such utter negativity about each other? it is really a sad thing in my eyes and so destroys any hope at magic you think you might have. I walk this path alone by choice ~ and really not totally alone, I do have a mentor, someone I look up to, I just don't publicize ~ you see I did the whole events, rituals, and public thing, for quite some time. I was at one time very sought after in Mississauga for readings and Spiritual Counseling, one particular Summer Solstice we had a wonderful circle going, but the line for services with me was so long and the souls were needing encouragement something that my empathic heart could hear loud and clear so the other practitioner that had come in from the Niagara region led the circle, it was a great night.....one I remember often, but like anything else sometimes things have to change and eventually some went on with their lives in different directions and I moved almost two hours away, and I think when I did I left a piece of my Pagan heart on the Lakeshore. It has never been the same for me with any other groups, organizations or rituals, I have been yes, no I didn't enjoy it and all except for one party I left early feeling disconnected....and this is the reason I am solitary, well to a certain degree, I do love our shared rituals and energy work, prayer calls and healing rituals we do on Witch's Chamber, I will always do those, but I dare say unless I trust you implicitly odds are I will not attend rituals or any other type of energy work, nothing personal but I have experienced and seen with my own eyes what energy can do and I can honestly say the few have spoiled it for the many.....just because this is how I feel personally though does not mean I would judge, ostracize or criticize those that go their way, we all practice how we feel called, that is what I firmly believe......I would hazard to guess that like me there are many many more of you out there with similar experiences and reasons for your solitary path.....so how does all this realization affect my life well I live in my truth everyday, good, bad, ugly or distasteful it is my life and what I have created, boy can you imagine how exciting it is to realize all that??? 

Now that I know I created this life, I am wanting to create one that I am much happier with ~ yes there are some that are ACTIVELY campaigning for me to never achieve this~ but as I did a reading last night for someone it became abundantly clear to me that it was high time I take my own advice, as I told her to write out what she needs and let the Gods know it struck me it was time I did the same.....I need a home that can accommodate my family, one that is warm, safe and large enough to give me a craft room......I need a vehicle because I have commitments I need to honor and I cannot do that without one,..... I need to be able to provide for my family and to find ways to reach heights in my art that I never even dreamed were possible, the wire heals my heart.....and I need to go home, I need to be closer to the people that I do feel connection with, only 2 hours away is much better than 18 hours away, and for that to happen I need to be able to take my family with me....these are the things I need in my life, these are the things I lay at the feet of the Gods and ask for guidance, help, support, protection ~ yes sadly enough, since I intimidate some by my lack of wanting to be a "groupie" I am the target of their attacks ~ so yes I need the protection of the Gods because unlike many I am not a stupid witch and do not count myself as higher than those I serve, it takes some huge ego to do that and any witch worth her salt knows that there is no room for ego in magic. It is time for me to recreate my life, take all the good that is here and I am grateful for and expand and grow with it, for all these things I call on the Gods, to cause no harm nor return on me, As I so Wish so Mote it Be

What do you need to recreate in your life? have you tried to write your requests, needs and words to your Gods? you might be surprised with the response, when you live in your own truth, walk it everyday and take the leaps with faith in those you serve then there is no magic that is too much, there is no moment that is terrifying because you instinctually know the Gods, they have your back. 

Blessings all! I hope today you find what you need, or at the very least you start stepping in the direction that will take you to it! 

About them bad behaviors

Maybe I have been silent too long, maybe I have just let things build up but right now I just cannot let it go anymore, I guess the inner bitch or witch or both have finally had enough and here goes!

I know we all wish we could always only deal with positive and love and light but it just does not happen that way.....let's see just this week in my own life there have been glaring examples of this, as much as I send positivity, love and spend my time with my altars, candles, incense the Fae and the Gods there are still moments where it just cannot be positive, you just simply have to deal with the negative and no amount of glitter or light thrown at it will change that. It is simply a sad truth that we must deal with as humans.

This week for me was a glaring moment of wow, not a good wow moment but a horribly disappointing one, that then lead to feelings of anger eventually at the very clear reality that no matter what I do I will forever have to battle for each step forward. No matter what circles I may move in, no matter how much I give there will always be someone that is not happy about my growth, slightly jealous I guess; although of what I have not quite figured out, but yet they must be in order to go to my fan page on Facebook and report MY status as spam.....let me be totally clear here, my page, my status and yet somehow me posting it made it spam.......yes and they did not do this just once no over a period of 3 days they reported 6 different posts, and followed posts to other pages and reported theirs too......not ugly, vulgar or any other type of maybe offensive posts, just regular posts, just because they felt like being malicious, just because they could and by doing so they created havoc for me and my page, or at least tried to. I will survive it so will the page, and at the end of the day I will be sad for the people that are so empty inside that they must hurt others to make themselves feel better.

Sad truth is though that most witch hunts like the one that I just lived through originate right from within the witch community. There is always one debate or another about how witchy this one is or that one, these are things I refuse to be a part of, we are all witches of our own kind at the end of the day. No matter that we all know the same quarters and call them by different names, we all have our own Gods and call them by different names, and all that is just fine by me, I just wish others could be as accepting, or at the very least if it is not for you then just walk away but why try to hurt others as you do? doing that doesn't make you a very good witch or human for that matter.

Needless to say days later the page is still feeling the effects now thanks to the wonderful way that Facebook does things, which in turn affects my life.....so yay you! you won on this occasion you wanted to hurt me and you did, yay you! hope it makes you feel a tiny bit of joy in that cold heart of yours, me I am going to scrape my knees off and pick up again and keep going......bigger, better and moving on, I have heaps of experience on this subject, not giving up is my specialty!

Blessings, love, hugs and smiles to all those that want them!