22 April 2014

Positive Proud Witch

Today I planted my feet on the ground, barefeet and grass! oh my I was in heaven, the pull from the Earth was so strong I felt it immediately like I had suddenly plugged myself into the largest power source of all, and I had.....in that moment I stood and just let the energy flow through me as I looked to the sky hands outstretched, loving the connection of Father Sky and Mother Earth at that moment! The flow of eternal life and cycle of love was amazing, the connection is what I live for.......me, the witch I feel most alive in that connection right there than I do with anyone.....it is the truest connection for me to the Divine, and after the last while I so needed the connection!

I know we all got shit going on, and well let's just say it has been a long hard winter for many of us, me on levels that I just so never want to discuss beyond saying you all just don't know! On top of poverty issues that have been ongoing for a couple of years and after all the health problems with me and my son's brain tumor this last year as well, then we had the death of my beloved red rocket as she sits there miserably waiting for me to be able to afford to fix her again, to top all that off we had the hand injury to my husband.....that is ALOT of crap for one woman to deal with! but I coped, I whined a bit to those that I know I can trust to understand that I just sometimes need to let my pressure valve go, because no matter how much of a COMPETENT witch I am I am still very human and need to allow myself to let the energies flow through so they can leave, but all in all I think I handled this shit with class, took my lumps, laid in my own bed and kept trudging through the literal shit, hoping it would get better.  I shared some of my struggles with all, but mainly only my inner circle has any idea how bad this last winter has been for us, so if you think I complained alot well then let's just say you don't know shit, I could have gone on and on and on trust me when I say this, but I didn't!

I purposely worked on retraining my very human mind to keep reaching for the positive part of every bad thing, situation or even person that I ran into.....I purposely wrote and posted things on my page that would help me and anyone else following along stay positive, I did not do this because I was a witch, I did this because I am human and needed to find a way to reinforce in myself a positive mindset.....an awareness of the literal silver lining in everything.....albeit silver wire many times that helped me find it.  Then yesterday morning on one of my usual daily shares I received a borderline comment, I debated what to do with it and decided to respond and be nice.......again not as a witch just as a human, that understands sometimes other humans need to vent their ugly on someone else cause well it makes them feel better about themselves, its human nature.......on I went with my day.  Last night I shared something else, ironically about haters, and low and behold the same person and the comment was even worse than the first.....this time aimed at not all humans, but at witches specifically......I wondered what to do at that point....banned, removed, unbanned, unhide, then outrage kinda struck a chord and banned and removed was the final decision, truth is my page, my Witch's Chamber is my place to be me, to share with others and to foster a place of strength, growth, positive vibes with a grain of sarcasm, but it will never be a place of negativity and derailing of others dreams or paths, not my space that I work at so hard....not in my lifetime.

So here is what I have to say today to haters.....I AM a Witch, I am a damn proud one, like many others that I consider to be a part of my circle....I have said before and will reiterate for good measure I am not a white witch, black witch or red witch or whatever other color you want to attribute to what I am I AM a Witch, working with both hands on both ends of the spectrum and hell NO it is not a path that you dedicate months to and expect to know it is a lifetime decision....there is no walking away once you open that energy, there is no choosing not to be a witch if you are, all you are doing then is stifling what is natural in yourself......on the thought that because you dedicated  "months" to research and felt no one would answer your questions, well it takes a lot more dedication, self growth, realizations, strength, love of self and others to be able to call yourself witch....it is not a label to be slapped on temporarily or without thought towards the energies you are opening yourself up to.....being a Witch is not for the faint hearted or those that think part time witchcraft ever works.....it is a bond between you and the Craft, that is right the almighty Craft......the crafting of energies, of love, of life....the Gods, the Mother, one of respect for all living beings, it is a LIFETIME thing.......and for me it is a generational one, that covers me, my ancestors and my kids as they grow....this is who I am, who I have fought to be and I will never pretend to be anything else.

Maybe witch is just not for you, or maybe it is but you need to fix the human side first....just a thought.....but hell I am just an old witch what would I know.....you in your infinite wisdom spent months learning what I have lived my entire life, you must be right and I must be wrong....yep ego hey there you are! you must have been hiding where the apostrophe on the page went! small minds, huge egos!

I could go on and on but would rather leave you all with something much more positive than these human ego issues.....look life! in the bleeding heart beds! yay! 

The Witch's Bleeding Hearts
Happy Earth Day!

18 April 2014

Recent projects and wire wraps!

Have a little look at some of the recent projects from the Witch's Chamber 

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Witch's Fingers! with Swarovski Butterflies! More availble!
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Custom Order, Flourite Peaks and Silver

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I hope you have enjoyed my look at some of the current pieces that have flowed through my hands! As always custom order pieces are always welcome! Thank you for enjoying my passions and art with me

17 April 2014

Artistic, Vulnerable and Fabulous!

Vulnerability, big word......big challenge.....big hurts possible, amazing growth guaranteed.....

Do you show your vulnerability everyday? do you open up and let those around you see it, the rest of the world you run into? do you hide it? or embrace it?

Tonight I was sitting thinking about all the things I want to write about, all the things going on in my life, the hand injury to the old guy, the insane living in the damn 30's environment I have lived in for the last 4 months.....the integration of who I was almost 20 years ago to the person that I am now, oh yea so much to write about and so I opened this tab and started fully intending to write about all of that and then suddenly the whole topic of vulnerability cropped up in the musings of the past in my heart.

Twenty years ago I was tough, I lived the expected life and I kind of towed the Portuguese young wife line, I say kind of because well I am sure I did not live up to the proper standards very much.....I did not show vulnerability if anything I became angry and defensive if anyone ever pointed out an area where I might be what i considered vulnerable to attack.....you see for me that is what that word meant for me then......sad isn't it? I actually lived like someone that felt they had to protect who they were inside.....anyone could see the outside no one was allowed on the inside......I thought I had it all together, I knew who I was, what I wanted and how I wanted my life to be and I wound myself so tight that well it was easy to tell people what me? I am not artistic at all, I have no idea where my kids get that must be their father because it is not me.....then someone saw a painting I had done, and they asked for it....that one led to another, then the most amazing set of Runes you can imagine that I had engraved made of rose quartz and carnelian.....ah they were so beautiful! I always wish I had kept them.....

That was some years ago, so those moments of showing vulnerability lead to many more, somewhere along the line the definition of vulnerability lost the edge of defense, the more art I have created the less daunting that word has become.......then the past creeps up and reminds you quick of who you were and suddenly you are left wondering when you let those defenses down, when did the walls tumble down and you didn't realize?  I am still me but when I look back I don't see me, I see a young woman so tired and so afraid of other women that she would never let anyone in again......it took me almost an entire lifetime to come back to a place of saying I have great relationships with women now, women I look up to, women that taught me that vulnerability and the strength to show it is what being a real woman is all about.  Vulnerability is not something to be ashamed of, it is not the way into my Achilles heel, it is me, the core, the love, the peace, the understanding, compassion, open hearted me that my art has allowed me to express.....you see I have been showing my vulnerability all along with each piece I have created, each photo and each connection with a new sister or brother, these are the moments that I have shown my heart.  I do not miss the woman I was, even though sometimes I miss some of the people I wish could have made the transition with me, but not everyone comes into our lives to stay and no matter how it ends we should just be glad for the time shared, it all teaches us something.......

and then sometimes its not about teaching us but showing us what we never ever want to be.....be thankful for the lesson, but do not hide or change keep showing that vulnerability....what a word......what a way of life......

15 April 2014

Dragons, Trips, Flourite and Giveaways!

Life has been interesting again to say the least! The wire well the connections to it are ever stronger and some of my best work thus far is coming through my hands, the Divine is certainly shining down on me these days in that area! I am ever so thankful for that! In the more mundane areas we have a hand injury to my better half, which in itself is cause for concern, even small injuries to his hands now bring on huge amounts of old fears from when he lost part of his left hand years back, and this injury well it is pretty serious, as his hand was trapped under the full weight of a car after the jack holding it up slipped. I shudder just thinking about the agony that must of been, but he won't share that with me, no for me he puts on a brave face as he relives his left hand, the negligence then that caused his loss and I watch as his eyes cloud over as he is transported back to another time in our lives. I try to help him see this is not the same, sometimes I manage other times well its his ghost to deal with so I afford him patience and time to sort through it as best he can. Secondly we have no vehicle now, this is very hard living in the middle of nowhere and the soonest walk to any store would be about an hour and a half, it makes for interesting times and lots of relying on our kids with wheels to take pity on her poor parents and drive us around, thankfully she loves us so she does.....interesting times I tell you!!!

I hadn't written in a long time, I have been swamped, between creation and the impromptu trip to Ontario it was like a whirlwind around here, but it was so welcome! I was able to spend some time with my kids, I missed them so much! I thought I would never let go of my son, he looks so much like his father when I met him now makes me smile just looking at him, then onto my daughter's home where I was finally able to play with my little grandson for the first time! oh my it was some happy days! Thankfully I have a wonderful sister/cousin that opened her home to me and my little brood, where we sat late into the nite of course enjoying things I should not be drinking!!! talking about old times, old places and memories we both share, it was so good to speak to someone that gets it, understands the whole cultural thing for me, how it affected us as women and how it related to our marriages and lives all these years.....there really is strength when women come together and talk, just talk, the connections we have are astounding and I am better for having her in my life, love ya girl!

 Then back here another 19 hour drive to make it home, saluted by crows all the way along, we made it home safe and sound and I diligently went back to creating with my wire and just today finished a tremendous piece with flourite points and silver wire, completely handmade by me, I am so excited by this piece!

 In the middle of that I have of course taken on all the chores here, alongwith new nursing duties, caregiver and all around journeyperson.....sigh, it is what it is right? ah well! and look the Blog has a new look! as much as I liked the other look, it came to my attention that the image was someone else's and didn't have open rights to be used, well I was pretty upset, angry, and disappointed but then again I guess live and learn....so I cleared the whole thing, every scrap of it where ever it was, was deleted.....and now! we have this new look courtesy of one of my closest sisters! She worked her butt off on fixing this for me and I am so thankful! when I showed the picture to my old guy and young guy they both asked the same question....can we go live in that house? so yes it is the perfect Witch's Chamber for us.

 OH OH before I forget! I have a giveaway going on the Facebook page available here Witch's Chamber for the winner will be a Dragon Chalice in their choice of color

So much still to say but next time! 

Blessings all! 
<3 Tess <3